One Last Thought...

well actually it is going to be a couple...

• As I grow older and my life changes, friends seem to come and go. I try to hold on to all of them, yet I know that cannot happen. I know that some friends are only meant to be my friends for a short while, while other friends are meant to be around forever. A couple of my friends have fallen away and I can't quite figure out if our friendship time was up or if it is going to come around again. I miss those friends and I want to hang out with them and I wonder what their life is like, yet when am free or have time to do things they never seem to be the ones who I call. Huh?
• School is starting soon and maybe that is why my mood has changed. I am excited to start the year, to see who my kids are, to chat with all the ones coming back for second grade, and I am excited to see most of my old colleagues. Yet, I am not excited about the politics that continue to run our building, the grouchiness that didn't go away during the summer, the fake smiles, and basically all the b.s. that happens. I pray daily that it will all change and it will be a better year, although I know that I will only be able to find happiness in my room and a few others if all else fails.
• I have been hearing many great homilies daily at mass and have tried to put each one of them into practice and continue to live out what the Lord asks of me. Today the message especially hit home in what I have been dealing with in my life. The message was to accept people for who they are and to live your life as an example of Christ's life. I have been guarding my heart from that very thing and in keeping my guard up, I have not been living my life as Christ would intend me to do. So I decided today, to let it all go and let God. Let Him be in control and not a backseat driver. Let Him lead me to where I am supposed to be, not tell him where I am going to be. Let Him show me all the things He has to offer, not guide Him to what I think he needs to see. So far so good, but we will have to wait and see what tomorrow brings.