Growing Up

Tonight I realized that I am really starting to grow up and change and so much for the better. Not that I was bad in the first place, it was just that over time I have found that I have really come into my own and I am able to handle myself on a whole new level. I know that many of you have no idea where this is coming from (and no Mom, it doesn't mean you get to ask and get the inside dish) yet I feel I really need to let it out.
I have always been out-going, self-assured, organized, composed, flexible, and up for anything on the outside, although on the inside I don't always feel the same. I'm not always as confident as I portray or as willing to let go of something that needs to be dropped or ready to confront people when they had done something that hurt my feelings or ready to share all my feelings with someone. But over the years, with the people that have shared my life and have shown me all these things that I too could do or qualities I posses, I have turned into the person that I am. It is weird to think, that if I hadn't of met some of you, then I wouldn't be the person that I am. I might not write my letters the same or hold my breath the same or believe the same or leave special gifts for people the same or love the same. Tonight I was able to stand up for myself (thanks, linds) and not take crap or just let it go. I felt confident in where I stood and I stood my ground. It was scary, but a good thing and it will set a precedence for what will happen in the future, if there is anything else that happens. I know that in the future I will be able to stand up for me or anyone else. I guess it is a part of growing up. A scary part of growing up, but a good one none the less.