Pedestals

There are people in your life that you look up to. You believe in them and in everything they do. You want to be just like them. They live the life that you wish you could have. You believe that they will never do anything wrong. You have put them on a pedestal, not realizing that the only place they could go from there is to fall. And when they fall you wonder what is the matter. You are mad at them for falling. You can't believe that this would happen. You believe it is all their fault for falling in your eyes. When in actuality it is you who put them on that pedestal in the first place, not them. They never asked to be up there. They never said, "Please idolize me." "Please worship the ground I walk on." "Please make standards for me that I may not meet and then be disappointed in me more than you would someone else."

It is funny, but I never really realized that I did this until this past weekend when it was pointed out to me. And it wasn't pointed out to me in a bad way, I actually brought it up and then as I talked it out, I realized what I had done. I had made my own standards for this person. I had put this person up on a pedestal. I had done all the things that I talked about before. And what happened, this person did fall, this person didn't live up to my standards. And now this person is going on with their life, but what do I have? What do I do with the broken pedestal pieces? How does this change our relationship? How does this change the way I look at this person? All these are questions that I have to figure out myself, because you know what? that person never knew about the pedestal.