Week-in-Review

This week was pretty crazy. With coming back from a week vacation and only having a 4 day week to handle you would think that this week would be a piece of cake, but not so much...

• my grades were due and the computer was down when I wanted to finish them, so they sat on desk for this week.
• the kids who were usually gone from my class, were in my class and the ones who were always there were gone, so trying to do the lesson that needed to be done was fruitless.
• we did an awesome art project and I had two wonderful helpers in to make my life seem somewhat serene.
• i sat in a meeting for an hour and continually got more and more upset and irritated by the way that people were getting treated in the work place.
• two of my kiddos did great jobs of flipping out right when everyone is watching.
• i stayed up until 11 three nights in a row and woke up at 5:30 each morning.
• i forgot about my weekly meeting, yet again with my mentor and then felt pressured to come up with something to say.
• i worked hard on practicing my hula for thursday, but didn't end up going because I was too stressed out from the week.
• i continued to be in charge of my team at school, but instead should take a lesser role and be led.
• i got an email that usually makes me burst into tears, but this time it didn't;> ...well not until I added all the things that happened in the week up then the tears came fully.

Yet again I felt pressure to perform and to outshine and to be the best, not just the best I can be but THE best. It seemed like the week couldn't end quick enough and yet it really was only four days. So this weekend I am taking time to reflect and rejuvenate and help myself realize that I AM a first year teacher and I will not be the best, I AM only one person and cannot fix the world or other people's world, I AM just me and that is the way that people like me. And gosh darn it, I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and doggone it, people like me!